dont u just love it?

yes! this is the season to be fat because it is holidays after one another. first will be christmas and in approximately a week later, we will be welcoming the brand new year. there are things that i hate about this festive season but also things that i simply adore.

shop shop shop! that is probably one of the must-do thing. everywhere i go, i see people. not a single inch of space, shoulder to shoulder. i do not know that people can be that close to each other under forced circumstances. i am literally scared of crowded places because of the fear of the fainting spells. breathe in, breathe out, girl! singapore's air quality is not that bad.

a brand new year means time to get the junk out of my space. it is time to spring clean my room which i have not done. i simply do not have to explain myself because my closed friends will know how lazy i can be sometimes. however, this time round, hopefully it will be a major and fruitful project, or rather at least let the change be visible to all.

i dont know why but i always feel excited writing down my closed friends' birthdays in the coming year calendar. it comforts me by telling me that these are the groups of friends who will stick through thick and thin with me for another year. i am not alone! although some friends have been dropped out of the calendar naturally or by force, i have no regrets. it is part and parcel of life, so just embrace it.

i cant help but to feel excited about the holidays and the new year. the holidays are here to reward myself for enduring all the crap that has been happening so far. a new year signifies change and hope. let the past be history and keep moving forward. =)

why am i feeling this way?

why why why? why the hell am i feeling this way now? i am simply grumbling about it right now. i was given an option right from the start but i chose to pick the least favourite of all. am i stupid? this is just so unlike me to do such a thing. no wonder i am feeling so restless the whole day. worry that i will do or say something to ruin the whole thing and anxious that my facial expressions tell it all. oh please! just stop all these from happening and let me feel relieved at the end of the day.